sydney frost

Hey

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 23:17:05 GMT

I am too busy.

P.S.

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 22:22:01 GMT

I had no problem telling you how miserable i was throughout it all.
Now that I know what it's actually like to be truly in-love with someone and this happy.
And I am, feeling tender and true love for someone like I never have before.

I am getting my priorities straight and heading in good directions for once.
not much has changed as far as home life goes, but for once I have looked past being miserable about it
and have come to realize I am going to get through it.

It's only been a day since he has left and I really, really miss seeing his smile.

I love you.

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 00:40:59 GMT

Lately,
I can successfully count on my hand my true friends.

happyhappyhappy

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 02:43:21 GMT

SMILE.

Tuesday.

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 02:45:10 GMT

AWE.

Hectic.

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 22:25:16 GMT

You have won me.

God damn

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 15:48:46 GMT

You.

When I'm ready.

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 14:47:27 GMT

But not for now.

school?

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 20:33:13 GMT

i wouldn't say that i dropped out... just quit going.

Fact.

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 03:55:11 GMT

I am becoming a pro at letting people down.

I need another job.

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 03:45:50 GMT

Please.

Hey.

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 19:41:14 GMT

Bye.

where making more friends would be easier.

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 01:02:05 GMT

I want to go back.

My somber mood has become a huge burden to me and I hate that I feel like I cannot control it-Nor, honestly do I actually want to. Yet again do I feel much better being away from everyone, and alone, just at an ease by myself.
It actually feels good.
Apart from the fact people just do not get it. I hate to offend, but is it so weird to be out of sight like I want to be? I feel like an awful friend when i'm like this, almost selfish because I just want to be with me and pay nothing to others.

I honestly do not understand why it is I am like this though. I have a decent life, though very complicated at present, it's decent and I am very lucky. Yet I am still mad depressed over nothing? I don't get it.

I feel selfish.

School is slowly but surly killing me and with that I feel the battle wounds are so rough and deep that I may not come out of this pain.
I bame no one else but my father, for leaving me to struggle like he did.

I feel stupid that I cannot learn. I wish it felt as easy as it looks. I try. And now I've just had a loss of interests and am just losing touch with any acidemic sight I may have had. It's been such a struggle. And I want to learn. But all of it has made me lazy and un-motivated to do any such things.

Things feel like they've kind of stopped again. I feel like I am waiting for somthing to happpen, to get some sign of what it is I am suposed to be useful - in this so called life we have to contibute to each day.
And I do not know what to do.

I just know that i am content right now with being alone.

I am working on sending a few care packages and letters out around and about the world for some deeply cared about folks pretty soon.
Look out.

p.s. Thank you.

Hello

Fri, 21 Nov 2008 01:14:02 GMT

again.

x.

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 19:19:55 GMT

1/5/06
Me and René met lastnight. :)